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Wednesday, December 21, 2011

The "First" Holidays...

Hey Friends!

I hope this message finds everyone well & happy! :) I haven't posted anything in a while, so I figured I would write about Thanksgiving and the up & coming Christmas. Thanksgiving wasn't as bad as I thought it would be this year. Josh and I missed Evangeline a ton but we made the best of it with our family. My Mom and I did our annual Black Friday shopping (12 years and running). Most years I count down the months to Black Friday but this year I really didn't care to go out. My Mom (who hates the mall) told me I was going, that right there is love! It was hard for me because this whole holiday season thing plays a lot in my head about last year and how excited I was to find out I was pregnant and planning for the future. I was excited about buying lots of toys, books and little clothes for my little one. And there I was watching all the other mommy's shopping for their kids like I did the year before and the year before that... I'm not going to lying and say that the first week or two of this month I didn't suffer through a lot of bitterness. I truly feel robbed in my experiences of my first child. God knows my thoughts and my heart. He hears my plead. I told Josh I didn't want to put up a tree this year. I didn't want to feel the happiness in what that use to bring me. Luckily I have a husband that did listen to me & my feelings but for my own good, he put the tree up anyway. I'm glad that he did because we have 5 beautiful ornaments for Evangeline on the tree. They are all beautiful and unique in their own way and were given to us from different family members. I'm trying REALLY hard to be happy this Christmas! There will be a big piece missing from us but I know that she is having her first Christmas with our Lord. Her Christmas will be a million times better then what we could have given her here.

I praying that all of you have a wonderful and blessed Christmas with your family! If you have little ones, take the time to soak up the day with them. Enjoy them. Love on them. :) I'm praying for a very happy & healthy and full of good news New Year for us all!!

Till next time!! Merry Christmas!!! XOXO

Katie

6 comments:

  1. Katie, I pray you and Josh have a happy Christmas as well,
    May God bless you and Josh this Christmas with JOY

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  2. Kris and Brittany GilliamDecember 21, 2011 at 12:55 PM

    Kris and i love you guys so much, we wish we were able to be closer to you guys. praying that you all have a wonderful Christmas and thank you for always being willing to share your feelings with us. your faith and love are truly an inspiration

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  3. Kenny and I love you guys... and pray you have a Merry Christmas and as you said... a New Year full of good news!!! You inspire me to be a better mommy and friend... thank you for sharing your inner most thoughts, fears, and walk with God. Love ya.

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  4. The first Christmas is difficult but I'm glad you put a tree to hang those lovely ornaments for your baby girl. Love and prayers for a gentle Christmas

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  5. I vividly remember feeling so many of the same emotions. My first Christmas was extrememly difficult. It was hard to focus on what I had because my heart was broken from what I didn't have.

    It won't always be this hard. As you walk the path of grief, you will become stronger and everytime you walk through a difficult day/situation/circumstance, it will get a little bit easier. The saddness will diminish as the joy creeps back in.

    Hugs and prayers for protection this Christmas.

    Trisha

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  6. Thank you, Friends! We made it through just fine. Lots of tears shed but all in all not so bad. Blessings to all in 2012!!

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