The Adventures of being a mommy....

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Oh, how He loves me!

Hello All!

It's been a while sense my last post. Sometimes I have bright ideas on what to write or I have so much feelings to share but I've been kind of blank last couple of weeks. I wanted to share of a book that I just finished last week. It's called Heaven is for Real By: Todd Burpo. This book is based on Todd's son Colton's experience in his brief but eye opening experience in Heaven. I desperately wanted to read it for not only more of a glimpse of Heaven, which the Bible gives us bits and pieces but also to see what Evangeline sees. I'm not going to go into too many details because I really want to encourage each of you to get a copy and read it for yourselves. I do want to say I long more for eternity now then I ever have before. I can't wait to see Jesus! I can't wait to see His eyes! Colton talks a lot about His eyes in the book. For a 4 year old to long to see those eyes again, they must be something! :) It blesses me to read what Colton says about Jesus loving His children. We always have sung the song 'Jesus loves the little children' but now I can honestly say I know that I KNOW He loves His children! So awesome!

I've been receiving from God 'the peace that surpasses all understanding'. I have always heard that expression  throughout life but until now do I truly know what that means and what that feels like. It is the best feeling to have. Just knowing that He loves me that much to give me so much peace to get through my day is amazing to me. He gives what a loving father would give to his child when needed. There isn't a day that doesn't go by that I don't miss her so much or cry a lot about her but each day gets better. God has given me the courage to continue on and share our story on our daughter. I love talking about her!

This weekend I'm going to see my niece Adia for the first time sense getting the news on Evangeline. It has been hard on me to see or be around babies, understandably so. I always said when I felt ready Adia would be my first baby to see. I'm excited and a little nervous. It's going to be so good to see her and for me to be able to move on. I think the hardest part is missing Evangeline while being with Adia. When I think of Adia I think of the 'what things would be like with the two cousins.' Rachel and I had so many plans for the two of them. That's what hurts the most the 'what would have been's'. But like I said in my last blog that Josh lovingly  tells me-'think on the what we will have again' not on the 'what we don't have'. Because we do have a little one. We were so blessed to have had her too.

Ok, I think I have rambled on enough for today. I will update and share pics of my visit with Miss Adia soon.

Till next time, friends.... :)


  1. I loved that book too, and can't wait to get to Heaven either. Prayers as you go visit Adia. I'm sure there will be some sad moments, but God will give you the grace you need.

  2. Stephanie from FBRCAugust 4, 2011 at 2:34 PM

    My prayer is that your time with little Miss Adia will be blessed beyond measure. That the "peace" that passes all understanding will continue throughout your weekend (and it will) and that God will do unbelievably more than you could ever ask or think in your and Josh's relationship with your brother and sister in law.(and Adia :) ) Praying for you both!

  3. I still have a tough time being around babies and it's been 3 1/2 years for me. It does get easier but there is always a tug at my heart. It makes me rely more on God in those situations because I know that I need His strength to get me through...mine is not enough.


  4. I'm so proud of you love!!! God has shown us so much this past month and I'm so thankful to have a wife that reaches out to others due to this. -Your husband:

  5. Still praying for you mama! I will pray for you as you meet your niece. It took me over a year to be able to hold a baby. I'm very proud of you for doing that! I read that book a few months ago and it is a wonderful book! Hugs to you!

  6. I love that book too and I long for Heaven even more having read it!